Archive for October, 2005

Well for the life of me I cannot follow a diet . . .

Does anyone else ever think this, I cannot figure out why this is

I wish I could just wake up tomorrow and be 120 lbs! Yeah that sounds great so tonight is Sunday night and tomorrow is Halloween and Monday, lots of candy . . . NO!

Tomorrow I start phase one of South Beach all over again!

I am so excited I am going to loose link 5lbs or more in the next two week and that will put me in the mid 130’s! I think that is fantastic! From their I will try and maintain that for the rest of the winter, and work it down over the summer!

So everyone who wants to join me now is GO time!

We are in phase one time.

So Today is not a good diet day and that is all I have.

So what a week it has been, yesterday I did very good on my diet throughout the day until the very end when it was ten at night and I had just gotten out of class.

I was starving so I decided to go and get some McDonald’s, so so stupid of me now here we go back to the sabotage of the diet! Why is it that I can’t just do it, I go a long just fine and then I think to myself wow I would really like this or that, and instead of being like, no Harmony don’t do that you are being counter productive and sabotaging yourself! I get all excited and then I can’t get the food out of my mind.

So I go to McDonald’s and get a big mac and a small fry, well at least that was good of me instead of just getting the meal because i would have eaten it ALL. Then I just went to bed after watching some tv.

But tonight I am going to my mom’s house and we are having a sleep over with my brother and his wife and their baby, and my grandma, and Brian and myself. That is going to be a lot of fun and if I can avoid the eating trap that happens when I am at my mom and dad’s house then I should be fine.

Yeah! I am still at 139!

Today is a day to celebrate, I didn’t gain any weight in the two weeks I took off of dieting.

So now it is back to the diet, sticking to the commitments!

Today,
Breakfast

Cottage Cheese and coffee

Lunch
Salad with Ranch, and a South Beach Bar
one piece of sugar free chocolate!

Dinner
Salad, and Chicken

So I am going to weight in tomorrow for the first time in a couple of week, two, and I am kind of nervous. Like you all know for the last two weeks I have been full of excuses. But we must all face the music.

I really need to examine why I do this every time I get to 139 or less I sabotage myself, I really need to stop the self sabotage!

So it is as good a time as any to recommit!

Commitment one
only eat south beach foods in general

Commitment two
only eat phase two foods rarely

Commitment three
exercise at least three times a week

This has got to stop I need to finish this weight loss thing! I have been at it for way way too long.

My journey started in August of 2001 and I weighted 168 lbs, I joined weight watchers and everything went well, by May 2003 I was at 133, then I got married and moved to Michigan and by August of 2003 I was 140.

Since then it has been gain five lbs, loose five lbs, up and down and up and down!

Now it is October of 2005, more than four years to loose 40 lbs, yes I do spend a lot of time screwing around!

It is ridiculous!

Breakfast:

cottage cheese and an apple

Lunch:

Sushi and a sb bar
Miso Soup, that i spilled all over my pants

Dinner:

Wendy’s ceasar salad and a 5 piece nugget

Snack:

half a frosty

So I have been sick now for about a week, and let me tell you when I am sick not only am I very cranky but I want to eat, A LOT!

So there has been no weighing myself and no recording of my food. But now I am excited to get back to it, and maybe even add in some exercise.

Now is the time to really get down to business for the holidays, Halloween doesn’t really bother me because I buy candy I don’t like so it is never a problem, but the rest of them can really get to me.

Just to let everyone know when you have been trying to loose weight for as long as I have you don’t just get excited when you loose some weight. . . You get excited when you loose any weight!

So this week when I weighted in I was down one pound! I am so excited, this is a great thing for me. I am going to do really good this week and hopefully loose another pound next week.

Today’s food will not be recorded so, you could just imagine what is going on.

HA HA,

Although I want to add this is not becoming another place for me to hide food. I am just taking a break for the day.

Thank you all for you support!

So Mondays are very boring

Here is what I ate today:

Breakfast

high fiber yogurt and a South Beach Diet Bar

Lunch

Lots and Lots of salad with greek dressing

Snack

Jello, South Beach Bar, sunflower seeds, cottage cheese

Dinner

Half of a pork chop, with green beans celery and onions

after dinner I had a fudgecile sugar free

I forgot to tell you yesterday I ate all of the sugar free candies in the house

Sunday when I woke up, I didn’t really want to. Husband decided he didn’t want to go hunting instead he wanted to do things around the house and change the oil in my truck. Well I had expected him to go hunting and I was going to a company picnic, so I told him ” there is no way in hell that just because you are changing your plans at the last minute, it mean I have to.” So instead he just came to my work picnic, and we had so much fun.

Breakfast

two eggs over easy with two pieces of Canadian bacon

Lunch

Cheeseburger with no bun
and a large salad with light dressing

Dinner

Two pieces of pizza and lots of salad

We played football all afternoon, and it was the first time I ever enjoyed.For me usually playing sports is just a flashback of high school, when all the jocks on the team would just scream and yell at you for like missing the ball. It was just another obvious chance to point out how NOT cool I was, unlike them.